Sunday, September 30, 2007

Growing Old Together...

"You know you are in love, when you see the world in her eyes,and her eyes
everywhere in the world."- David Levesque -

What a nice quote, don't you think?

Anyway, I was in the usual chinese restaurant I always have my dinner in, and something spatacular hit me on the head, and this, I HAVE got to tell out, to anyone, I am or I will be dating, or marry...

Alright, there was this table, beside that table that I am sitting, I didnt know what was the occasion was, but, there were alot of Chinese Ladies, sitting and eating...

Well, those chinese ladies, wasn't just any type of people... They were really really old, I think it their late 50's..

Just an ordinary old lady? Heck no!!

They had their hair dyed in some particular colour suck as, Red!! Purple!!
No there is anything wrong with it...

But, come on.... You are old.. You are frinkled.. Don't tell me I gotta tell you to "ACT YOUR AGE??"

Well, if you look like this hot chick below...

Everything is Ok..

But,.. if you look like this!!

Please... Come on man...

To my future spouse, I would still love you, even if you become like this..


One of the best things about marrying the one you love, is growing old together.
Not, when you are trying to grow old, and your spouse is trying to get younger!

I hope i didn't scare any of you!

What the heck??

Ronaldinho? I cant even kick a single ball for nuts!!

Saturday, September 29, 2007

An unexpected, unplan, most gayiest, but happiest saturday of my life!

Saturday, was a day, truly didn't turn out, to be the way, it should has become!

I couldn't all all night, the day before, I was just tossing and turning around my bed, thinking..

But the time I manages to get some shut eye, it was already dawn.

I bath... I got my bag, head out to Taylor's for my usual Saturday study time, in the very quiet library.

I was really hoping just study there, as I'm far from completing anything at the rate I'm going.
Unfornutatly, the library was close.
Was clueless what to do, I drag Yin Ying out of breakfast!
We makan tosie, How on earth you spell that food????
Anyway, while eating, we decided, to go visit Yvonne who are having badminton competition at UCSI!
Well, we too called Gian to go along with us to UCSI, he says he was bathing, so, we had to waited.
Habis makan, Yin Ying wanted to go and change.
Well, yea, she didnt take too long, that i manages to read my notes!!
*Don't kill me Yin Ying!!!*
Anyway, after Yin Ying change, we drove off to Gian, Seok Kheng, and frank's house.
Upon arriving, well, we just explore!!
Seok Kheng just woke up in a nick of time so, we ask her to tag along and she did.
Waited for her to bath, well, I had to play the guitar...
and on saturday, we just added a new member to the Biomed Rockstar group!

Dear Yin Ying just became the newest Rockstar member!!Seok Kheng, your guitar really brought alot of people together! It is truly, really, a respectable peice of equipment known to me!
Anyway, drove all the way to UCSI
University College Sedaya International

We were all watching the game, calmly at the back or, front of the stage,

Closes to furthest: Yin Ying, Yvonne, Gian, and Leonard.

Seok Kheng was too intensified to stand, she was crouching behind the chair...

watching the game yang sangat hangat!!

Mr Quak Quak guy!!

*Evil grin*

Unfortunately, Taylor's lose, losing to 3 University, so, OUT!!

But, i have to say, we fought till the very end!

And that, goes with alot of respects!

Great job!!

Anyway, being in UCSI, must definatly snap some, first time in UCSI pictures!!

*this is the best picture I could pic, sorry Yin Ying, i had a bad hair day!!*

Anyway, (above) , Yin Ying and Me.

(below) Me and Seok Kheng

(below) Me and Gian, with Hantu Seok Kehng at the back!

USCI had a magnificient Multi Purpose hall!!

It was built with a gym, over looking the hall!!

Well, We couldn't leave Taman Conought with out eating Pan Mee, so yea, Sedap !!

Seok Kheng first moment of nice pan mee!!

Yin Ying couldn't take her eyes off it!!

Gian drank the entire bowl down!!

Yvonne don't let me take picture!!


Anyway, after Pan Mee, they all decided to go watch movie, so, we drove back to Yin Ying's place, and waited for the to girls to bath and get ready!

Gian spot something long....hard....not flexible.. and he started making love with it!!

Gian, you are gross!!!

Check out that horny look he got on his face!!

Because, we were running late, hair drying needed to be speeded up, but, blow drying it!!

Yin Ying, uses the more natural Hair drying method, that is just by standing looking out of the window, and let the wind dry her hair..

We waited for them to get ready...until Seok fell asleep..
Then, gian fell asleep...

Soon, I was the only one awake...

*joking lar...*

*was just acting*
We arrive at Gian's, Seok's and frank's place soon after...

and took our first shots too!!

Wee.. I feel so gay... but nothing tops what was on for me next...
we went to Mid Valley to catch!!
The gay movie...which definatly rise my Gay-o-meter from 36% till 101%!!!
After that movie, going into Toilet with kok Loong...becomes very very scary...
Joking lar...
When we left, it was time for dinner...
we ate, Bah Ku Teh in SS14...
No picture was taken, Phone no battery...
and, we ended the day with everyone going to their respective ways..
That night, i slept real soundly, the kind of sleep, that one deserve after a satisfying memorable day!!
Thank you Yin Ying, Gian, Seok Kheng, Yvonne and Kok Loong for the greatest Saturday, in the Year 2007!

The sun, heat absorbtion and reflection!

This is what my biomedical sciences classmates can cook up when ask to draw what absorbs and reflects the sun's ray!

*no comment*
We just rule!

Allien From Outta Space!

With great imagination, this isn't a plasticin with two needle stuck on it.
This is actually an allien's head!! If you strain your eye a little, this is not my finger, holding the so called allien head, and fit it on Yin Ying's body...
It is actually, an allien called Yin Ying..Ok... guess what evil deeds has Yin Ying stored for all of us!!
(Scroll down)

Kekekeke... I really creative way to murder someone you don't like!

*Don't take it to heart, it is just a joke!

Friday, September 28, 2007

Hippocratic Ming

Thanks to Yan Min for introducing me to a very interesting article about Mother Teresa.

Born on the same day as me, 27th August, Mother Teresa I could say, almost have the same personal crisis as I have.

It is on Thursday, this week, that I know, that, I am not alone, and there are people like me around too.

I am not trying to condemn Mother Teresa, nor trying to tarnish the good dees that she have so much done to the world.

Like Mother Teresa, we are both share a comment personality. We are a hippocrates.

"Jesus has a very special love for you,'' she assured Van der Peet. "[But] as for me, the silence and the empiteness is so great, that I look and do not see,-Listen and do not hear- the tongue moves [in prayers] but do not speak... I wanr you to pray for me- that I let Him have [a] free hand"(Times Magazine,September 2007)

This taken from a letter, Mother Teresa sent over to someone. Because, at the end of the article written in Times Magazine, she wishes that all these letters be destroyed, I shall not disclose anymore.

If I were to ever write a letter like Mother Teresa did, to someone i trusted most in my life, it would go..

Dear Someone,

Everyday, everynight, I hope, I wish, I beg, for tomorrow, a better day awaits me.
Feeling alone, feeling empty, feeling lonely, I wish there were more people like you.
People that knew me, me and out, deep and shallow, up and down.
I am so sick, of putting up a face for everyone to see, as each passing moment, is where reality lose it way, more and more.

Food taste like water, hunger is like stuffness,
Nothing seems to be the way, it used to be.
I'm so darn driven to succeed in my studies, I begin to realize the simple joy in life.
I used to be so happy, even though it is the smallest things in life.
Easy to say, I am easily pleased.

However, recently, I feel like, I am going into a war with myself.
I've studied so much, so hard, yet, I don't think I'm going to make it!
Every second that I have, every joy that I've enjoyed, I invested it into you, study.
The most terrible thing is, for every second, effort, energy that I've invested,
I worry that, at the end of the day, I failed, and all these investment goes to waste.
And, so, a positive feedback mechanism drives me up, and it goes on and on.

I don't think I can coupe with myself anymore.
Food taste like water, because, I have no time too chew,
No time for food, I got used to hunger.
Sleep turns into the only time, I have for myself.
That if, I do not dream I am in a lecture or doing my tutorials, or even thinking how to solves my tutorial questions.

Help me someone, Help me. Tell me what to do. Tell me what to see, when to touch, how to speak.
I tell people to do good, I advise people to stay happy, but, I myself feels like shit, I myself feels unhappy. I tell people not to cry, I tell people not to give up, but, myself, I'm trying so hard not to, and some part of me, have already started to give up.

People always say, I'll never walk alone, yet, I've never felt, I was followed by anyone.

I always wondered, what am I doing here, at this moment. What is my purpose in life?
I've never done anything great. I've never made humanity a better place.

For startes, I cant even make myself happy.

I feel like shit dear someone. I seriously feel the end is near for me.
I need a place to unwind, express my feelings.

However, my arrogant is killing me.
I shall never never ever fall as low to express my true feelings, cry nor give up.
But, somepart in me, wishes it too.

CREW my problem dear Someone.



Sincerely Your's
Hwei Ming

*Unfortunately, Dear Someone will never be there.
* Hwei Ming is going crazy!

Monday, September 24, 2007

Deep Thought

A few days ago, was really hard for me, physically, and mentally.

I think, I'm suffering from some sort of delusion!


neh... it is one of those time, where you give yourself a really really really deep thought about what are you, doing in this pitiful, sad, miserable planet called earth!


Results.....(haven't actually thought of it)

see.. what was really bothering me lately was,

"Am I the product of what I was in the past, or the product that I'm making myself to be, in the future?"

Yes, I know, I have a past of testimony wish could easily mount up bigger than the current president of the United State.. But, what the worth of it?

Not in a million years, if I dream to ever become president of Malaysia would come true.
Even with my over qualified pass record!

However, what if i waited a million plus 1 year? Or maybe a day? Or a minute? Or a second?

Probably, that slightest, tiniest time, it came true?
And, I was the President of the Human Race!!

*Big dreams Hwei Ming!!*

Trufully, and Honest,

Most of the time, in my life, maybe not yours, I am doing the things, I hardly see the future in it!

I want to be a successful businessman, I want to hold an empire of busineses, an empire state building! or maybe, a private island of my own.
But, what am i doing as a biomedical scientist?

Today, I might make a decision, Tomorrow, I might of regret it, but, what if, the day after tomorrow, the decision i made today, was the right one?

Question...question..question, and many more question, ringing in my head!

What if?what if not? what if i do? what if i ask? what if i say?

One thing for sure, nothing is for certain in this world.
i guess, that is why human invented the word ''risk"!

If you don't take "risk"today, you might regret tomorrow...
but, what if I take "risk" today, and tomorrow, i regret?

Then, one would say, thats why, you must take "risk" when taking the "risk"...
If thats the case, I would say, so, I am "risking"to take the "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk"which in itself is a "risk".... The list could go on....... EXPONENTIALY!!

Alright, now, I've made it clear, everything is risk!!
You might drink a cup of water today, it is a risk!.. What if you drink the water, and the water itself is contaminated? What if you dont drink the water? for certain, you'll be dehydrated. What if you do drink the contaminate water? for sure, 100% you'll die. What if i ask whether i should drink the water? For sure, someone will knock you in your head!

Well, then, the question now is, WHAT IS FOR CERTAIN??

have you ever heard of the Principle of Uncertainty?
Well, if this would, you walk and talk Physic all the time, maybe you'll heard of it.
But, come on, I'm human, and please, leave physic behind...

Lets talk, like the norm... Negate Physic...

I am sure, if you are a normal human, you wouldn't go to a shop, walk around the counter, see a can of food you want to go and buy, and then tell yourself, "I am 95% confidence that 45%-55% that, I am going to buy this can of food because..yea.. your mama told you so..."

Well, even you actually do that 95% confidence interval nonsense, you are still 5% not certain.

Now, this big question is, how many percent, on average, the decision you make everyday, is for certain?

ok... Lets count the mean for me...

Eating(99% for sure, I would eat!!)
Sleep( I give it, lets say... 90%)
Blog( let see... I updated, maybe, 2 time a week, 4 weeks in a month, so... 25%)
Study( definately 0.1%)

GOSH!!! I'm only 53.525% certain at a god given second of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, for this given second in my life, 46.475% I am uncertain that the air that i breath is safe to breath! I am 46.475% uncertain that, what my feeling telling me now are certain! I am 46.475% uncertain that, what I am typing now, is going to be read by you!

Well, now, that my lame mean calculation of my certainty is done, and set at 53.525%, a bit pathetic, I know..

This mean, 53.525% when i talk to you, I really mean it. 46.475% I don't mean it!
*gosh.. I'm a fucking liar!!*

Almost half of the time, I am lying, maybe not to you alone, but to myself!

Now, probably, that is why, sometimes, I make decision, where, uncertainly, I regret and do not regret. Statistic don't lie! Hwei Ming is 53.525% certain and 46.475% uncertain at a god given time!

So now, to you, I would like to take this opportunity, to say, I am sorry if I've hurt your feelings as i was 53.525% certain i was doing the right thing, 46.475% of my mind, is thinking likewise.

To end this post, here's a peice of advise, don't think so deep like what I did.
Because, it is not worth you time!

I took a few day, thinking about it, only a few minutes writing it in this blog.
And, i bet, in a few days time, I would forget about my certainty mean.

"This is a cruel world, sometimes, we say things, we regret saying, and it will be too late to take back those words. If i've ever say or done any of these, I am sorry from the bottom of my heart. And, honestly, that is 100% true from my heart and soul"(Hwei Ming, 2007)

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Random Candid, Posing Picture, and Poova Playing.

I have a new dog today, sadly, we actually don't have a name for it yet!
It is a female German Shepherd.
Just about 2-3months old.
So cute right?? Anyway, This i say to my FAT ASS car...
Freaky long car... Park till it almost hit the back barrier, and still, stucking its nose out of the box!!

Anyway, lately was feeling like these(below):
(Below) Wahahaha... Yin Ying and Yan Min are so going to chop my head off!!

This is why, too rajin also not good.. you always get your picture taken by lazy people like me!!

Day Dreaming Yuen Mun (Up)

ahaha..... Something everyone should be waiting for..

Mr. Poova, our very own stats, maths and physic lecturer, play badminton!!

Check out all the post man!!

(above) seok, acting cool on Val's sun glasses!

(Below) Yin Ying, so called Guarding her baby(bags).. dragging it all around Web...
Like some cradle!!
These pictures below, I GOT NO COmment... i found it in my phone, so, I'll just post it up...


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